Everytime I think of you, I feel this unexplainable feelings. It seems that the clock stops ticking and its hands are not rotating… funny it is but I really was telling the truth.!!! <3 but…(there is a but) the girl I was talking about doesn’t feel the same way too.. :’( how sad.. but I accept that fact… she had someone in her heart right now (obviously it’s not me) I don’t really know what’s his name and I don’t even have the plan to ask someone to tell me his name… I might get hurt!! But I love it… I just don’t know why?!!! Am I just so martyr??? Can someone give me some advice???  She really makes my world go round, spin it shake it and decorate it put a rainbow on it.. oh my dear sweet angel!!!... how can I stop this feeling? I want to stop loving you so that I will not  get hurt anymore but the more I ignore and stop this feelings, the more it grows… to the extent that I’m already missing you and acted so crazy and rude.. tommorow morning, we’ll be going back to cavite because of my mom’s situation… I love to stay here in mindanao because my dear sweet angel is here, but  I can’t really dare to be far to my family becaause they’re all I have and besides, i have no reason(anymore) stay longer here :(.. hahay… I’m leaving mindanao… I’m far apart from melissa’s reach… is this a goodbye? Oh I don’t want to think this way. I’m really expecting much from her, I’m really expecting that we would be together (someday)… I have to accept the fact that ME + MELISSA = NEVER!!! Typing this words really hurt my feelings… it really break my heart! I love her… I really do… I don’t care what others would say but I’m really feeling this way.. who the hell cares?!!! I really love her I really do!! I love her… oh this words are so sweet… when would be the time that I will hear this from her mouth? Saying those words with all her heart.. i love her but I guess this is the time to end this… :’( this really hurt… but I have to… I don’t want to bother her anymore… if that guy can make her happy then I’d be happy too… even if my heart is bleeding… goodbye mindanao… goodbye melissa…. Saying this is so ouchiee (as my cousin would say as a new term for hurt)… it seems someone is pulling my heart outside my chest… put it in a blending machine and blend it… this really hurts melissa my dear… I do love you but I think you’re happy with him right now.. I hope he won’t hurt you.. be happy mel, I will never forget you… I will not stop loving you… (now crying) you will always be my melissa… though I don’t have the right to call you my/mine… I love you… and this feeling will never ever change… :’(